Remembrance Day 2012

As if we could ever or would ever forget.  Once again it is Infant Loss Remembrance Day.  I don't have much or anything profound to say.  Just taking time to remember holding my precious girl for the few hours we got to have her.  As I feel this new little one growing inside of me and moving around and around I remember how hard little Aimee could kick and how social she was.  She would start moving even more when others would touch my belly!  It was almost as if she knew it would be her only chance to communicate with most of them on this earth.  I remember seeing her eyes open and close during her last ultrasound, savoring the moment with tears in my eyes knowing that it would probably be the only time we ever saw her do that, and it was.   What a precious moment to have been able to see and one I will treasure always.

We love you Aimee and can't wait to be with you someday!!
Aimee's birth day.





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  1. UnknownSeptember 26, 2019 at 10:58 PM

    Oh Boy, Thank you for writing this blog. I just got to know you a little bit more and am so proud to know you. All you have been through and you wrote about it. It was beautiful yet so sad. My niece by marriage is going through the same as you did in 2012. I can't imagine. Kim Lau

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