Wednesday, November 30, 2011

What I Did Today

Opening a pair of pajamas on Christmas Eve is a tradition we grew up with and continue with Lucy.  This year as I was going through some clothes my mom was getting rid of I noticed this great Christmas shirt (thanks Auntie Brig!).  My mom gave me the idea to make Lucy some Christmas pants out of it.  What a great idea!  Thanks Mom!  I not only made it into pants but there was even enough to make an entire top too.

As I was figuring out how to make her jammies Lucy was playing dress up and hanging out with Violet.  It is so nice to have a little girl who will entertain herself... for awhile!

This is what I started with.

First, I cut out the sleeves to make the pants.  If making infant pants you can use the bodice of the shirt but my Lucy has too long of legs!  I used a pair of pants that are a bit big for her right now as a pattern since I want her to wear them for awhile.  Also, using the sleeves meant I didn't have to hem the pants. :)

After I cut out the pants I got a shirt that is also a good size for her right now and used that as a pattern.  The original shirt has buttons down the front and a nice collar so to not have to not have to mess with any of that I lined up Lucy's shirt with it in the middle and cut out the sides.

I cut enough fabric off the bottom to make the sleeves out of!  You will notice the sleeves are not full length.  There would have been a seem around the middle of the sleeve if I had made them full length so I asked if she wanted them short or long and she wanted them short, (they are about 3/4) which will work well for her since she is always pulling her sleeves up anyway.  The really fun part is that I made the cuffs of the sleeves out of the front of the shirt so on one arm are little buttons and on the other are the button holes.  Kind of cute!  And I can button her hands up if they are getting too grabby.  Haha!  Not really.

After all the cutting out I moved the pocket and sewed it all up!  Amazingly easy and quick... if you know how clothes go together.

I know, I know, you want to see a picture of her in them huh?  Well, you will have to wait until after Christmas.  I sure hope they fit.

Merry Christmas!  She LOVED her pajamas!  I realized one mistake I made, I need to add another button between the top one I added and the top one that was already there.  Oh well, an easy fix.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

As If It Were All A Dream

Because of a generous gift given to us by some friends, Matt and I were able to take a little trip to Victoria a couple weekends ago.  It was a great getaway and gave us time to reflect and discuss how we are doing and healing.

While talking with Matt I was surprised to hear that we both are emotionally in the same place.  It feels like it was all a dream, almost like I wasn't just pregnant for 9 months, almost like I never held our beautiful girl in my arms.  It's an odd feeling.  Not one either of us really enjoy.  We don't want the constant pain but are having a hard time accepting that many days there isn't any pain.  We aren't forgetting our little Aimee, by no means will we ever forget her!  We have reminders of her all over the house, the rose bush out front, the hydrangea in the back, Lucy's 'Aimee bear' that a friend gave her to help her through,  all of Aimee's stuff, her hat, book, necklace and so many sympathy cards still sitting on my dresser without a place to be and every time we see the letter 'A', it, of course, is for Aimee.   All of these are little reminders of our girl and the joy she brought us for such a short time.  But none of these things are her, none of these things wake me up in the middle of the night needing to eat or have a diaper change.  None of these things are learning to sit up or smile or giggle at me.  How do I learn to be ok with letting go?

Because I know she is in God's hands.  I know that, even though I don't like what happened, He is in control.  For some reason He allowed us to have Aimee.  There is a reason. Maybe it was to bring Matt and I even closer together through difficult times.  Maybe it is to teach us to enjoy the little life God has allowed us to raise even more than we already do.  Maybe it is to help others who are going through similar situations.  Maybe it is to teach us that our lives are not our own, no matter how hard we try to hang on to them and do what we think best for ourselves, we are NOT in control of all that happens to us.  Maybe it is to remind us that God is our Heavenly Father who IS in control and loves us so much.  One day we will get to be with our Aimee again and hold her in our arms.  That, we know to be true and the thought of it helps us to accept this, the hardest valley we have ever been asked to cross.

If you have ever been in such a time as this, please comment and let us know how you handled or are handling it.  It would help us to know how others experience loss and grief.